This is a very personal blog.
Today as I was driving back from Federation University, Steve Jobs’ words resonated so much more than they ever did when I first heard his speech on YouTube. “You can never connect the dots by looking forward, you can only connect them by looking back”.
I began to think of all my past experiences, the good, the bad and the ugly. The people that have come into my life and stayed, and those who left. The education I received, the opportunities I have been given and those that I have missed.
I have come to realize that life is indeed a journey and what we experience today only builds us to be a better person tomorrow.
“The decisions you make today will always affect your tomorrow.”
It was at this point that I had to let it go, to let go of all the past hate, all the triumphs and challenges in my past and just live for today. To come to a realization that what I did last week, last year or even 10 years ago, has led me to this present moment.
My heart is filled with so much love and gratitude, just knowing that I’m living in the present. Counting my blessings and giving joy to those around me in life.
We as a society have become so bitter and we hold on to so much anger, because someone somewhere said something that you and I did not agree with, or someone offended you. But the moment you make a conscious decision not to be affected by peoples remarks, good or bad, then you my friend have mastered one of the arts of living.
We live in a material world; we often want what we don’t have; we have great aspirations and we know that nothing is impossible but we have to be logical and set our hearts on things we can achieve. Nothing wrong with having bigger dreams but look at your current circumstances and set yourself five achievable goals.
I have had to let go of some goals in my life; as I grow older, I come to appreciate myself more and what it is that fulfills me. I’m getting closer and closer to my calling and this meant going back to my dream when I was 7 years old watching television: I wanted to help people and tell stories.
Follow your passion they say, but follow your calling I write. I have had to let go of all the expectation I thought society had on me. I have had to let go of the dreams that have been holding me back. To silently forgive those that have wronged me, those that have hurt me and thank them for making me a stronger person and letting me realize that I never want to be like them.
Looking back as far as I can remember, my entire 31 years have shaped me into the woman I am today. Today I’m celebrating you and as I embrace my calling and letting go, I thank God for the gift of you, your love, friendship, mentorship and for reading this blog. I’m wishing you love, joy and health.
Here’s to living in the present.